Broken

I typed a blog entry last night and apparently it did not save. :/ Let me see if I can retype it.

Friday and Saturday were pretty busy. On Friday we drove to Kyle (near San Marcos) for a wedding. It was outdoors and was beautiful. So natural and simple, I loved it. The kids had a great time there too. They were able to play outside and feed horses (pics to follow in the next day or two from the horse feeding). Here are a couple of pics of my cuties from my phone.


We ended up driving back Friday night because we had baseball pictures early Saturday morning. The kids were great in the car. Yesterday we also had two birthday parties to attend and the kids had a blast, they were completely worn out and are still asleep this morning. Shawn and I also had fun visiting with friends while the kiddos played.

Meet Captain Allyson!

While all this excitement was going on, Shawn and I were broken on the inside. Remember I posted last week about one of my best friends from high school and to pray for her daughter? Well, I spoke to her mom on Friday while we were driving down to the wedding and Addi had a bad episode earlier on Friday and was not doing well at all. She ended up passing in her mother's arms. I could not believe it and my heart ached for Susie and I wanted some how to take some pain away for her.

Shawn and I both lost it while on the road and we prayed together as a family for this sweet baby and their family. I explained to Jase what was happening because we have been praying daily for Addi since she was readmitted in the hospital last week. I told Ally that we need to pray because Addi was really sick. She saw me crying and wasn't sure what was going on, so she started to cry as well. Later that evening she told me a couple of times "I'm not sick." I smiled at her and said "I know baby."

As I looked in our backseat I felt so blessed on one hand and so unworthy/guilty on the other. I don't know why certain things happen to certain people. I do believe that God hand-picked Susie and Darrell to be their parents from the beginning and He knew just how precious their children would be. Susie wrote on her blog that God knew how amazing her kids were that He must have wanted them up there with Him. I don't doubt that for a second. Addi is now with her big brother Cade in Heaven and I'm sure they are looking down upon their family and friends and saying don't be sad, we are in a glorious place and pain free. And since Darrell and Susie are believers in Christ, they will be reunited with their sweet babies once again and will be with them for eternity, but I know as a parent I would long to hold them each and every day. May God continue to be with this wonderful and faithful couple in the days, weeks, months and years to come. My prayers are with you, Susie.